People pleaser guilt
Since my last post on my photography struggles, I have still been struggling to lock something down for Isaac’s first year photos.
I was finally in touch with a great photographer who was willing to work with me on a package and responded to my emails promptly…that is until I was ready to lock in a date and give her my money. A month went by and I even sent a follow up email with more specific dates and still no reply. I was so frustrated! Am I doing something wrong that no one is responding to me in a timely manner or are my expectations just too high?
Frustrated, I aired my grievances to a fellow board member of a service organization I am a member of. She just so happens to do photography on the side and was more than happy to set up a time to shoot my Little Man’s three month photos. Within a week, I had sample photos from her and we’d booked a time.
Well, today I received an email from the previously mentioned photographer wanting to schedule a time. Seriously!?! So, I emailed her back tonight and politely said I had made other arrangements for the three month photos, but would like to set something up for the six month photos in March. I hit send and immediately felt guilty! Guilty that I didn’t wait just a bit longer before going an alternate direction. Guilty that she went to all that work to accommodate my needs and then I backed out.
Grrr, so frustrating! In the end I am getting what I want and am so excited, but still feel guilty….and will likely make up for my feelings of guilt by spending way too much money in March!